this woman knew how to want

Eva Cassidy only moved out of musical obscurity two years after her death, and only thanks to a trusting BBC radio DJ. . .

i hope you enjoy her

free to choose but not free to want; therefore not free to choose

its like breathing
and crying
and dancing
and laughing till your belly hurts and you cant stop coughing

im free to choose because im free to want
no limitations
no shoulds
no appeals to or diminishment of a greater good

just free to want

to have passion

to desire

to become infatuated
to chase
to follow
to be led

i dont have to want what you want but i might
and you dont have to like what i want but you might as well


if i can learn to want completely. to give into desire, i will have learned or unlearned something real


is there a good way to explain it?

i dont know what i want because ive forgotten how to want. i only know how to please or to dissappoint.

all my desires, thoughts, behaviors center around pleasing or dissappointing other people, therefore its all im worried about, and all i can be happy about achieving

the last thing i really wanted was neb

and i was so conflicted about that completely engulfing desire that the opportunity diminished

i want to desire so much that its not even a choice that i pursue.

i want to feel and experience, and proliferate, and generate

i want

to




live

genuinely, happily, fully, passionately